i wish he would just be put on probation already. i don't know what he does late at night, especially on weekends and during breaks, but it's not anything good. i don't trust him when he's with his friends. thats just fact. like last night i called him at 9 30, and he must have been driving because i could hear car noises, and it was like 5 people were in his car and everybody was yelling, and after 30 seconds, he said he'd call me back later. i knew he wouldn't. i knew he would text me at like 2 am, asking if i was still awake. and i was right.
the amount of freedom he has is dangerous and nobody is trying to stop him. i would like to believe that he hasn't done anything that he would regret yet, but considering the current path he is on right now, i'm not sure if i can still bring myself to believe it. it makes me want to cry, how he's so.... damaged and hurt and depressed but he doesn't really want to deal with it. he doesn't want to talk about it. his parents don't care what he does anymore, i'm pretty sure they're getting to the point where they don't care period.
i'm getting to the point where i'm depressed from being so tired. and because its january. this month has never been good to me