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Have I got one for you. Back story: School was awkward, he tried to kiss me on Thursday, ended up being all sweet on Friday, but we were both confused as to where we stood. I asked him to call me before 7pm or after 9pm, CALL NOT TEXT, so we could talk. He said, yes yes i will, i love you, etc etc bull shit. I then go over to E's house and KD was there too. E told me about something sketchy that happened that implied he may have had a girl on the side, or was at least doing something suspicious with her. I never knew of T hanging out with a female T, just a male T. (They all share the same name haha). Anyway, KD says she's seen my T hanging out with a female T, a TD to be exact. SKETCHY. Now here is where it begins.

Start: Saturday Jan 31, 2009- 12:24 AM

T- Hey, sorry it took me so long. I was at the movies with beau, jon, and drewww!
A- Cool man.
T- What?
T- Is something wrong
A- Yes.
**CALLS ME TWICE; I DON'T PICK UP TO GIVE HIM A TASTE OF HIS OWN GODDAMN MEDICINE**
T- I know your right their beside your phone
T- What the hell Angi, I didn't do anything?
A- You're only calling me now that you know something is wrong.
A- Thats the thing, you didn't do anything.
T- I'm sorry. Its just hard to talk
T- And your not a perfect little angel either so don't play that card with me
A- If you miss me and care for me, why don't you ever call me. Text does nothing
A- Who said I was. But I've been trying harder to contact you and you pull the text crap on me
T- What the hell, I'm sorry and I do fucking care about you. I love you, and I'm sorry I'm wait WHAT? Fine then I won't fucking text you at all is that what you want? Okayyy
A- How about you call me instead, just to talk. Why do we only talk when there are problems
T- Texting is better then nothing and I have talking on the phone. I love talking to you but I'd rather do it in person. Ughh wtf I HATE FUCKING FIGHTING GODDAMMIT IM SORRY OKAY IM FUCKING SORRY
A- I'm tired of sorry. Its all I ever hear
T- Well you know what I'm tired of. You being embarrassed of our relationship from the beginning because you were scared of what your friends would think you wouldn't stand up for yourself because your a fucking follower who only goes along with everyone else. You told me in the beginning you didn't want to "act" like we were in a relationship because of what your friends would think but if YOU really cared about me that wouldn't matter
A- What is this follower business? When my friends started giving me crap, I defended you. I tired my hardest to have them accept you and like you, now matter what they heard
T- Oh yeah, because I'm a "bad" kid, right? They DONT FUCKING KNOW ME
A- I don't even know you
T- Whatever
T- I can't take this shit, I'm out.
T- What? I told you my life story basically how could you even say that
A- Not that. Everything else about you. I don't know much
T- I can't believe you just said that... Seriously. I guess all that time we spent together was a waste of time right? Or maybe you weren't listening because I learned a lot about you. And you know a lot about me
A- Tell me all that you know about me. Not trying to be malicious but I just want to know what you know
T- Well I know that your very smart, care a lot about school your favorite color is gold, when you grow up you want to be a doctor your birthday is march 24 you listen to weird but good music? You love the shins you don't play any sports you love jordan shoes [[TOTAL LIE JORDANS BLOW]] and style you told me your favorite food? But I forgot
T- Your asian and filipino you love having fun but you know when to be serious.
T- You don't have your license, you want to get it before your birthday
T- You love candles and love painting your nails
T- You procrastinate with work but you always manage to finish
T- You spend about 75% of your time in your computer room
T- You take naps after school and stay up mostly all night doing work
T- Your favorite subject is science
T- You hate math
T- You said you wanted to go to UVA? I think
T- Your 16 years old
T- Is that good enough, because I can keep going on.
A- Well keep going on
T- Okay you've lived in the neighborhood that you live in since you were in 6th grade I think, you used to live in fairfax if I do remember
T- Your real name is bronte your full name is angela I think? or something like that
T- You have no pets, you don't want any children when your older because you hate them
T- The only reason you joined chorus or any activity when you were in middle school was so you could go on the trips
T- You hate singing
T- You want me to keep going on
A- Go for it
T- You hate snakes apparently (well mine at least)
T- You haven't had a relationship that has lasted more then a month except me. [[LIE]] and let's not forget to add in that we love eachother
T- I know a lot about you, why do you act like I don't
T- And I bet your surprised I know so much...
A- All these things could be found on an about me. I feel like nothing you said shows that you really know who i am on the inside. You could be describing an entirely different person and it would still fit the bill
T- Wtf are you serious?
T- Okay smart ass who am I then? You know what I'm done. Your so conceided
T- Unless you have a goddamn twin its not the same. You have to find something wrong with everything. If its going good, its not good enough for you.
A- Think about it. Do you know anything more than what I have explicitly told you? That's the thing, I don't know anything about you. I'm sad to say it
T- You don't even know the things about me that I told you lol what was I thinking you don't love me
A- We barely talked. The only things I know about you are the things you did. Its really disappointing but all i seem to know is that you could be something amazing but you're ready to throw down the towel.

End: Saturday Jan 31, 2009 1:22 AM

A minute later, he calls me. He starts to raise his voice, so I do the same, so he'll listen to me. He then yells at me to Shut the fuck up, so I reply with a, Who the fuck do you think you're talking to? Yelling yelling, then he calms down once he realizes that yelling isn't accomplishing anything. He tries to pin some shit on me, how he keeps trying to get me out of the house so we can be together. I tell him that I'm not about to sneak out or disrespect my parents for anybody. Blah blah he's losing the fight. Then I tell him how he put me on hold and he would never make an effort to really call me, just text whenever it was convenient. He couldn't really say anything to that. A couple minutes pass, and finally he says "You're right. You're right about everything. I did ignore you and take advantage of you." He was trying to sweet talk me again. He apologized for what he said earlier, that it was disrespectful and rude and that I didn't deserve it. He said I didn't deserve this and that he was being a dick. He asked where we stood, and I said that we were not on the same level and we weren't really ever going to be. I'm disappointed that I never made it clear that we were completely over. That there was no chance of anything at this point. After awhile, he said he wasn't feeling well and he asked me to call him in the morning and that he would pick up the phone. I said no, why don't YOU call ME when you want to talk. He said okay. He sounded very sad and beat down. A couple times early on, he sounded like he was crying. Sniffling at the very least. Anyway that was that. He said he would never text me again. He said he didn't mean it in a bad way, he just wouldn't use text message anymore. We hung up. I never asked him about TD. I decided to wait, to talk to some people first, see if they knew anything.

Texted J if he knew of T hanging out with any female T's. He says no. I decide to tackle that later. Anyway, I get home at 8AM and conk out until 1PM. I'm asleep on and off, until 2:25PM when Taylor calls. I pick up. No answer. Hang up. Whatever. Texting people. 2 friends who work at panera say they saw T at panera getting buddy buddy with some fake blonde. He was sitting on her lap and he looked like he just woke up. Suspicious much. I come to the conclusion later, way later, that it wasn't his sister since J said T's sister, Kristen, had a sleepover herself and hung out with her friends the whole day. Couple hours pass. T calls again. No answer. Hang up. Then finally, D and Ash are over and I'm busy with pasta and my phone rings. Ash picks up and tells T i'm doing something but I'll be done in a second. Anyway when I finish, I call him back. T's friend, Beau, picks up and says they just came back from the gym and that he was gonna get Taylor. I wait, and someone answers. It's still Beau and he kind of talks to me as if I'm beneath him. Finally I get to talk to T. He's talking to me like I'm his bitch. He had an asshole tone. He said he talked to J last night, (J and Drew slept over) and I waited for him to follow up with something but he didn't. He then says, "Personal question... Would it be gay if me and Beau went tanning?" That was confusing. Anyway he says he's got to do something and that he'd call me back in 2 minutes. LIE. Whatever. More time passes. He texts me later, saying "Call me when you're not with your friends." Even though D and Ash are still here, I call him. He sounds surprised. I can hear him talking to Beau, and I say, are you with your friends? He says yes, so I just say, well call me back whenever you're free. I never expected him to do anything so that was the last time I talked to him. J called me tonight and asked if I had talked to T yet. I say that he never called me back and that it was whatever. J sighs. He's caught between the two of us. TD comes up. Apparently they're both at Beau's party together. Anywho, I ask him how he feels about TD and T. He says that T told him that they were just friends, but honestly, he thinks they're boning in the butt. Whatever. I get on facebook after getting off the phone with him. I decide to contact her via fb. This is the conversation:



TD
Today at 10:18pm
heyy sorry but my fb chat it retarded. what did u wanna ask?

Me
Today at 10:19pm
Are you with taylor waldron? If you are, I won;t be mad at you. I just want to know if you're involved with him.

TD
Today at 10:20pm
no wer not "with" each other. but yeah wer talking nd hanging out.

TD
Today at 10:25pm
y?

Me
Today at 10:27pm
Because I heard some rumors and I just wanted to find out what was really up.

TD
Today at 10:29pm
rumors?? what r u talking about? lik nothing bad is happening so idk y there would b rumors. who said what?

Me
Today at 10:31pm
I'm not going to mention names but I just heard some ambiguous stuff going around that you guys may have been more than friends while I was still dating with him

Me
Today at 10:32pm
I'm really not going to be mad at you if it was true, i just want to know

TD
Today at 10:34pm
honestly we werent. lik wer friends. so he came to me when u both broke up nd i talked him through some stuff. i mean nothing happened when u both wer dating, we didnt kiss or nything if thats what ur thinking. taylor was honest nd loyal to you, he really was. nd i would never do that with someone if i knew they had a gf.

Me
Today at 10:35pm
When did he tell you we broke up?

TD
Today at 10:36pm
the night it happened.

Me
Today at 10:36pm
Like when exactly?

TD
Today at 10:38pm
umm idk lik last weekend or sumthing. i dnt remember we talked on the phone. y whats wrong?

Me
Today at 10:39pm
We were on a "break" since last week and I basically broke up with him this past friday night.

TD
Today at 10:41pm
o well i didnt kno that. nd idk if he did or not. he didnt tell me...the only thing he said bout friday night is that you both talked nd it didnt end well or sumthing.

Me
Today at 10:44pm
Okay thanks for being honest

TD
Today at 10:46pm
yeah so hold on u guys were dating as of last week?

Me
Today at 10:48pm
Pretty much, we were on a "break" but technically still "dating"

TD
Today at 10:48pm
but did he kno that? cuz what he told me was that you all broke up.

Me
Today at 10:53pm
Yes he knew, we were in the gray area but we weren't done yet. I tried to put us on a break for a little bit, and he didn't want to so we weren't, if you get what I'm saying. Then he wanted to go on break this past Tuesday, so I said fine, but he still tried to act as if we were still together and wanted to do "couple-y" things.

TD
Today at 10:55pm
o. well did you guys do "couple-y" things??

Me
Today at 10:56pm
We still like, kissed and whatever. I couldn't get out since I was, and still am, grounded. I don't know what he told you exactly but we were still "together" until friday night.

TD
Today at 10:59pm
hold on, srry im jus trying to get everything straight. but what do u mean by kissed and "whatever"?? what do u mean by whatever? did u all makeout nd more?

Me
Today at 11:02pm
We acted like a couple

TD
Today at 11:03pm
o okay.

Me
Today at 11:13pm
Yeah I don't what he told you exactly about what happened but that's the straight up truth. Thanks for talking to me, I really do appreciate this


Long story short, I think she was starting to question the things he told her. I'm really not mad at her at all. She was being played. He never told me that he was hanging out with her at any point. I'm really fighting back the urge to call him or text him. I swear I'm a maso, I love to keep in contact with people who hurt me. Anyway, what's done is done. I am never speaking to him again. I'm going to pawn his bracelet, try to make some money to compensate for the wallet I got him. Thing is, I'm not even really mad. Pissed, but not mad. Before I was thinking of ways to get back at him, things to do and say that wouldn't be so bad that I'd get arrested, but enough that he'd be embarrassed. But now, I'm really over it. I think it was because there wasn't anything substantial there, just physical nonsense. Class with him will be fun. Like I'm really looking forward to it. If my female history teacher, TCP, asks me about what's happening, I'll just tell her straight up that he played me like a fool. I am not stupid, but I'm not ridiculous. I'm not going to get angry in class and I'm NOT going to make a scene at school. Maybe after school in the parking lot, but I don't think it'll happen. First of all, I think people would stop me first, and secondly, it doesn't matter all that much to me. I should be angry that he had a girl on the side that I had no idea about. I should be angry that everything he said were lies. I should be angry that I'm $100 poorer because of him. But I'm not. The best, and worst, way to learn a lesson is by living, and that's exactly what I'm doing.

Well... everyday is a new day. If I see him, I don't know what I'll do, or what I'll say. I don't know if I'll even bother. I guess it depends on how I feel when I see him. Angry, sad, betrayed, hurt, confused, malicious. The pain of being hurt by somebody you really and genuinely loved and cared for is somewhere off in the far distance. I can feel it but barely. I hope this doesn't make me crazy.