New Day

T asked TD out last night, because facebook told me and my eyes screamed it when I saw them together. Earlier, I was really hurt, depressed, angry, etc etc, but now I just see it as something to grow from. I could take it one of two ways: become a psycho bitch and be angry and miserable all the time; or I could see it as a learning experience, if you will. Sure, she's probably a rebound girl. Sure, she's probably fallen for the same silly foolishness I bought into. But I am not her and she is not me. I WILL BE STRONGER THAN WHAT PEOPLE SEE ME AS!! No more anger! No more disappointment! No more being hurt and no more hurtful words! What's done is done and that is all that I can say. Goodbye yesterday, Hello RIGHT NOW.

I must say, I'm doing a fantastic job of staying awake in school. After getting trashed on by my rents last night, which I totally expected and deserved but just wasn't ready for, I knew what I had to keep doing. I'm not going to let a midyear failure bring me down for the rest of the year, or really, the rest of my life. Winter is full of bad mistakes. Winter is my growing month. My heart is breaking because of him, and because of my grades, and because of the way I'm letting my life turn out. THIS ISN'T WHAT I WANT TO BECOME! Therefore, I will BE THE CHANGE I WANT TO SEE!

EVERYDAY IS A NEW DAY TO DO SOMETHING GREAT. EVERY MINUTE IS AN OPPORTUNITY TO GROW AND LEARN AND LOVE. Don't take advantage of the time you are given! The best gift anybody could ever have is the gift of LIFE. I don't mean existing, i mean LIFE. TO LOVE AND BE LOVED IS ONE OF THE GREATEST THINGS LIFE HAS TO OFFER, for without love, there would be no happiness. Take the good things, as well as the bad. Do not regret too much, and do not dwell too long, for the time spent on such trivial worries could be better spent on LIVING!