3.24.2009

birthday festivities



its the birthday cat, ushering in this post. evelyn called me at midnight to wish me a happy bday, then soon after getting off the phone, groggy as fuck, i celebrated by taking a shot of yac and chasing it with coke.



that is how all my cousins do it in the BAYY, so i gotta do like them. after that, i went straight to sleep. woke up to a million text messages. through out the day, i was constantly greeted, even by taylor w which made me lol. went to chik fila with ashley, evelyn, kristie, and bro bro to celebrate and it was super awesome. I carried this little gem around all day:



i get home finally and chill around. logged onto facebook with over 40 notifications, it was pretty ballin. its sorta sad that all these facebook comments wishing me a happy birthday make me smile lol. anyway, i take a nap, and wake up to my rents singing happy bday to me. they hand me a VS bag with underwear:



and another bag with an iHome dock and a wallet with 100 dollars in cashmunnaay in it. it was very nice of them!! then we go to chipotle to eat bday dinner. when i come home, im sitting in front of my computer, when my parents come in holding a cake and candle. they start singing again and i blow my candle out and make a wish.



it was most delicious but i refrained from eating nothing more than 2 bites. great birthday! so much love from everyone!!

thank you to everyone, i really do appreciate everything you do for me and everything you are to me.

3.12.2009

hello post 70

i got the wallet back! it looks pretty new except for the purple BHS id card stain in the id holder. ehh, idk what to do with it now that i have it. maybe pawn it if possible, but i'll just let it sit in my backpack for a little bit. When he came over in history to return it, i said thanks, and he said "no problem!" as if he was doing me a favor. cool. then he started talking to me about some creepy chick stalking him because she's in love with his bff or something. whatevs, i just put my head down once he started talking.

thank god for jay larsen! his C+ on the chem quiz that nearly everyone failed is saving my ass cuz my teacher gave me the same version of the quiz, so i was just copying down the questions he got right.

um fast forward through the boringgg.........

DREAM SCHOOL:

located in the heart of claremont, cali. its a private liberal arts school just 30 miles from LA, holllla. good school, good crowd, good financial aid, good location. its pretty damn expensive, about 36K a year, and thats only tuition, not including room, board, etc. but the people they accept are scoring 2230's on the SAT, 32's on the ACT, and some of them are valedictorians/salutatorians. FML? a little. but im gonna work hard to possible be accepted, even though AP Chem is already dead to me. (hence, my need to cheat)

the taste of my future is bittersweet, along with this clementine

3.08.2009

o hail no

i got watchmen today, it's proving to be an interesting read. beautiful weekend, hung out with some people. i've noticed that all i seem to do with my friends now is eat and gossip at the same time. its the simple pleasures that get to me

tomorrow's gonna be a nice day again, so i'm going to look for some weather-appropriate clothes

3.06.2009

DONT FUCK WITH ME!

I have won the game. The wallet was just the tangible prize, but the ultimate prize cannot be seen or felt except under the circumstances of a victory. My victory.

It started yesterday during lunch, when K and A went up to Taylor, asking for the wallet back. He deflected, naturally, and said it was in his car. Ashley looked at him and said, "Okay, meet you at your car then." Fast-forward to the afternoon. We book it to his car, me, Ashley, Evelyn, Kristie, Kate, and Robert. We wait for about 20 minutes. Kate and Robert leave, and witness a drugbust in the lower lot. Anyway, after much waiting, the Taylors arrive. I wish I had created a fight playlist, because Mad by Ne-Yo and Bad Touch by the Bloodhound Gang are not appropriate for when tensions are high. Anyway, Ashley and Evelyn walk over to Taylor's car. I'm sitting in Evelyn's trunk with Kristie because I am scared as shit of Taylor. Who knows what that motherfucker would do or say?! Anyway, both Taylor's ignore Ashley and Evelyn, especially Waldron. He's looking down, watching his feet, basically fulfilling the purpose of a pussy. He doesn't acknowledge their presence until Ashley asks for the wallet. Oh and what do you know? HE DON'T GOT IT. He says, "Oh I left it at home...." Okay sure nigga, SURE. He begins to ask why I want it back. Ashley tells him that it's expensive and I just want it back. There's a tone in his voice like, 'Really? You want it back? But it's mine!!!' Anyway, Ashley just straight up tells him, Bring it tomorrow. I expect to see the wallet. He says okay. The entire time, his girlfriend is giving me the dirtiest stank-ass look I've ever had the pleasure to be seen/given. As Ashley and Evelyn are backing away from the Taylors, I can hear Taylor W giving lip like, Why does she have her friends do her dirty business for her? So I call out to them from where I'm sitting and I tell them straight up, "You gave her the bracelet, so I want the wallet." While mah giiirllz are over there making nice with the Taylors, I'm talking to Kristie, discussing the nasty-ass look on Tay D's face, loud enough so that I could be heard over Bad Touch. NOT EVEN SEX SONGS CAN SILENCE ME. Anyway, that was that, and we're making our way back down to school to go see the drugbust. Before I take more than 10 steps, Tay W calls me over and asks me why I can't just talk to him myself. And shit, I straight up tell him, "You scare me." He has a sort of offended look on his face, insisting he's a changed person and bullshit bullshit bullshit. WHATEVER. He tells me I can come up to him whenever about anything, and that I shouldn't be afraid. I say that I'll "keep that in mind for next time".

NOW ITS TOMORROW AKA THIS AFTERNOON

History class passes by without a second glance. For a moment, we make eye contact and share a mutual WTF with each other when some kid starts talking about random bullshit. Then when the bell rings, he books it out of the room so fast, in hopes that I won't "harass" him. FUCK THAT JANKNESSITY. Ashley comes with me up to the top lot to claim what is rightfully mine. He looks a bit confused and waves back at me. First thing out of my mouth is, "Can I have my wallet back?" He says, "I don't have it."...
"What do you mean you don't have it? You said you would bring it today, and today is here. Where is it?"
"I left it at home. I forgot. You know me, I don't carry a wallet around."
"That does not matter. You said you would bring it today."
"Why do you even want it back? You gave it to me as a gift."
"Well you gave that bracelet to me as a gift, but you decided to turn around a regift it to your new girl."
"Look, I understand, I see where you're coming from, but I just don't see it that way."
"What do you mean?! You regifted something you got for me. Who does that? It's CLASSLESS, TACTLESS, AND TRASHY."
"I don't know what you expected me to do! You were the one who returned the bracelet to me, so I don't see why I should have to return the wallet."
"Because I thought you'd just return it or pawn it. Anyway, things changed when you gave her the bracelet. So I want my wallet back."
"You know what, I don't know if I want to give it back..."
"What." I look at him with icy eyes, daring him to fuck with me. Go on, FUCK WITH ME.
"But you know what, if you really want it that bad, I'll give it back."
"Good, because I do really want it that bad. I'll be expecting it on Monday. I'm not trying to fight with you [SHIT YEAH I WAS BUT YOU KNOW WHAT GOTTA STAY CALM FOR JESUS], so please and thanks."
"Ok. Text me tonight."
"....What for?!"
"To remind me. I'm going to forget."
"I don't have your number anymore."
"....Well get it from someone else!!!!"
"Okay, sure, if I don't FORGET FIRST."

THE END. MOTHERFUCKER. YOU DARE TO CHALLENGE ME? DO IT! I AM NOT AFRAID OF YOU IN SUCH A WAY THAT I WILL NOT DEFEND MY OWN. I REFUSE TO BACK DOWN IF YOU GIVE ME A REASON TO KEEP GOING. I must say, I feel like he's actually afraid of me. Him and his girl. Go on, give me dirty looks again. Give me looks like you smelled something stanky. See where that gets you. If you got game, BRING IT TO THE TABLE AND CHALLENGE ME. You want to throw words around and you want to throw fists? OKAY DO IT. Try and hit me with your lax stick, Tay D, you only made JV Lax anyway. If he doesn't bring the wallet on Monday, it doesn't even matter anymore, because I do not care. Walk straight up to him Monday morning, and if he doesn't have it, all I have to say is, "Fine. Keep the wallet. It doesn't matter anymore, and it's not worth it. You're not worth it. So you can take that wallet and SHOVE IT UP YOUR MOTHERFUCKING PUSSY." Maybe I'll skip that last part. If Tay D was such a good girlfriend, she would have stood up to me while I was bitching at her boyfriend, or at least stood by him. What kind of girl deflects? Who wants that kind of girl? Oh right, the kind of boy who shares the same name and also has a vagina.

In any case, I'm ready to have a fucking gorgeous weekend. 70s saturday & sunday. Beautiful. My grades are pretty good too, so that's a plus. Anyway, BRING ON DA SPRING TIIIIIIIIIME!!!!!!!!!!

3.04.2009

i fucking love kyle xy

I once heard that you must risk getting burned if you want to find happiness. So I waited and waited to be passed the torch, but perhaps waiting does nothing but build helplessness and dependency. Maybe I have to find my own torch and set myself on fire. Ok maybe not that last part.

I don't think I want to go to med school anymore. I don't think that it's the path for me, to be honest. I get enough of my hospital fix from House and grey's, i don't know if I'd want to go through 8+ years of school just to be able to have sex in the on-call room. I'm kind of diggin a Communications major to be honest. It is a BS degree, but the internet is telling me that I can do quite a bit with a Comm degree. I like flexibility. I also like penis. I don't know if it's a good idea but hey, some people aren't cut out for cookie cutter greatness, ya digg?

Whenever people low blow me by bringing up taylor, like "at least i didn't date taylor!!", all i can do is laugh, because I did date that. I don't care if I somehow manage to stick taylor into a blogpost everytime, because it's my fucking blog!!!!!! Anyway, I can hardly believe that it really happened, you know. It's probably my mind's way of deflecting. LOL he was that bad.

UNGROUNDED IN T-MINUS TWO DAYS!!!!! So excited. Sunday is going to be really warm. It's gonna be a stupid weekend, at least I hope it'll be. I'm ready for a new haircut, a new wardrobe, a new ME! I'm going to make my own torch, drench it in gasoline, and SET SOME MOTHERFUCKERS ON FIRE!!!!!!

I've got a box of watercolors and special watercolor paper in my room, I think I might indulge in some of that. I must start attempting to release some creativity before I go crazy. I'm becoming increasingly more aggressive, angry, and stalkerish as time passes. I don't want to scare away all da boyz~

3.02.2009

you suddenly complete me

the yeah yeah yeahs' new album, it's blitz! is so good. i've had it on repeat since it was leaked.

in other news, i got this ring:



so you can all kiss it. I mean the ring on my pointer finger. best vday present from my pop pop ever. haha

anyway... skyped with my ladies last night for a good 2+ hours. during the course of the skypeage, i realized that i become even more of a bitch while eating sweet potato chips. its probably all that vitamin A. at least it's sort of healthy. i'll begin working out when the weather stops being an asshole.

ah march. full of changes! spring is coming, haircuts, new leaves turning, etc etc. and you know what else the spring time brings? CLASS OFFICE CANDIDACIES!!! I'm gonna run of senior class pres of 2010, SO VOTE FOR ME BITCHES!! i'm gonna fuckin tear shit up if i don't win. I dont know why i want to win so badly, maybe because i've never really been more into winning something as i am into winning this. i just want to make sure spirit week doesn't suck ballsack, and making that senior speech is so tempting.

i'm bored and boring